So its been 20 days since I have sworn off all things male….
I feel good about it! I feel my mind becoming calmer and more clear. With out the constant worry about what the next man is doing, I remember why I use to crush at being single! I’ll list a few reasons why Single Finess is way more fun than Booed Up Finess…
I get to be selfish… not in a bratty way, but in the way I live my life day to day. I can sleep in, spend time with my love ones, spend my money on whatever I want, take the time to take care of me. Total and complete self care.
I am more focused… since our breakup, I have the secured my financial future as well as set plans to travel. On top of all of that, I am feeling so hopeful for what’s next. This time has allowed me to refocus my thoughts and energy to want better for myself. I feel like I could reign over my life with grace and finesse.
I am healthier… I actually working out and getting sexy! Lol, I don’t know if its because I want to look good to catch a man, or that I am more social and want to look banging in my party dresses, or because I have more time to fill up… but damn it, I am starting to look amazing.
I feel great about myself… With all my attention and focus on myself, I have time to give myself plenty of self love. I am learning to forgive myself for the mistakes I’ve made. I am learning about myself and growing as a woman, determined to be better.
The thing about Booed Up Finess isn’t that she is bad, nor does she lose sight of her wants and goals, its just that she has kind of shitty taste in men. Its not that I go out looking for liars and cheaters, but I seem to have a hard time seeing the devils behind the mask. The guys that I date are charming, ambitious gentlemen, who say and do all the right things… for the first 6months. Then once we hit month 6, that facade melts away and I get to see the real snakes, but by that time, I all messed up… cuz you know… I fell in love with him. SMH! Every. Single. Time!
But hopefully that’s where this 90 day cleanse will help. I can’t keep doing the same things and expecting different results. I am about to enter the last year of my 20s, and I am terrified to bring over bad habits into my 30s.
So far so good…